a beautiful day.

"A morning shower is like a rebirth, reflections of the womb, crazy sentimental floating in lukewarm placental, Now I chop a burden on the sink trying not to think about what 

Lies before me but the sun just reassured me that 
Everythings gonna be allright, the last thing on my mind is tonight..." -Travis McCoy, Gym Class Heroes, A Beautiful Day

I'm feeling enlightened today. I really am. Maybe because the weather is nice, because that kind of makes me a little happy when the weather is nice. puts me in a fantastical mood. muuch better than yesterday. we have a few weeks of school left, so hopefully they'll be fun. i don't like to dwell on the fact that i'm in a shithole of a town, i'd rather just embrace positive things about it. i'm not really bent on going home, i'm not homesick, however, i do miss some things about being home. moping around about not being home is a waste of time and emotion. so i just live life one day at a time. no point in being all depressed and what have you, because in the end, it does nothing but make me look like a sap. haha.

too young to be depressed. so anyway, hopefully its fun, i want to really get out and do something for a change hopefully if i find time and audacity to do it. these days i spend less time in my room because i need a change of scenery. i did a little cleaning up today because i was sick of looking at the mess that was on my side of the room. and as far as not being in th4e room as much as i could be, i get more done elsewhere, too. i'm tired of looking at the same 8 (or so) walls in here. i even changed my sheets to green. (^_^)

so shannon and i were talking about getting out more, and she was saying that you kinda miss out on the whole college experience when you're inside doing nothing. which is true. so like we decided to go out today, even though it probably won't happen (never does)...but you never know. and even if we do get out, we probably won't find anywhere to go. but the point is, getting out and doing something other than sitting around in boredom.

i just feel enlightened. its like no holding back time. no pessimism today. maybe tomorrow when i have to do homework and shit. but not today. but i think i always feel like this on saturdays.

so in this few weeks that we have left..."i'ma do it up." lmaoo