You know, this is a f**ked up place.

You know, I just realized some things. Well, I didn't just realize them, but they kinda slapped me in the face...Why the heck is college so expensive? I understand that it's not mandatory, and they need funds to keep the school up and running...materials, scholarships and all that, but it's just really sad. It's unbelievable now many people can't go to college, or had to drop out, or had to leave a 4 year university to go to a community college because of money. It's not fair. I'm grateful that I don't have to go through that, but I just think that it's really fucked up how people can't pay for school. Everyone should be entitled to higher education if they really want it.

Then you have the critics who say things like "Well, if you have good grades, you can just get a scholarship, anybody can go if they really want to." I think that is a load of BS. So if you didn't have at least a 3.0 GPA in high school, and you aren't rich, it means you don't want to go to school? And then, even the kids who have excellent grades and SAT scores can't even get the money that they need.

But another thing that really pisses me off are the scholarships and grants you get when you apply via FAFSA. They do a lot based on your parents income. So there are kids whose parents don't make enough to pay full college tuition, or so the government thinks. That's very humble, and i appreciate the financial aid for those who really need it. But what about students like me? Students that the government thinks that their parents make too much money, so they don't get a dime? Offered a measly loan? A loan? Really? I'm blessed to have a grant that pays for some of my schooling, but I don't get a dime from Maryland's Federal aid or State aid. But guess what? High income parents have expenses, too. With large income comes large expenses. 9 times out of 10, kids whose parents make good money live in more expensive houses. That means higher mortgage, probably a higher electric bill, and definitely higher maintenance living.

It really sucks how the system is, but there's not much that can be done about it, especially in this crappy economy. The economy is affecting parts of everyone's lives, in regards to healthcare, defense, college tuition, employment, and commercial industries. There are people who can't get affordable health care. There are people who can't find jobs, or have been laid off. People are not selling like they used to. It's because nobody has money. We're at a severe deficit right now. It's probably worse than what they want to tell us. And there are different reasons for these things.

Many people dislike Former President G.W. Bush because of their perceptions of him and his decisions made on this country. I don't think the man should be blamed. This is not an authoritarian government, it is not an anarchy, and it is not a dictatorship. There is no King, Czar, Prime Minister, Emperor or Lord. This is a democracy, meaning that any Act, ordinance, or law passed between January 2001 and January 2009 was discussed with various commitees, Congress, the House, and the Senate. Yes, I believe he had some flawed views. But I disagree with they way people slander him.

Then other people seem to think that President Obama is Jesus or something. Talking about this guy, saying he's making everything worse, and he hasn't done anything to fix the economy. He has barely been president for 8 months. The mess took 8 years to create, it just might take that long to fix...or longer.

Maybe we'll have a miracle.

Or a Herbert Hoover ► Franklin D. Roosevelt transition.

We don't know.

we won't know until people shut up and go with the flow. I was watching CNN yesterday and they showed all these angry protesters and their congressmen. Heated arguments. It's terrible, but that's how it is.

Well that's my outlook today.

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Bringing Freshman Year to a Close

Soo

It has finally come to the end of my freshman year in college. Its been real. REAL. It was pretty interesting because so much happened this school year. I've been amused. I've been pissed off, I'm been all but an exception. I don't regret this year at all...well maybe I could have been more serious...but nonetheless, I am pretty satisfied with this school year. I met some cool people. I met some annoying people as well. There are some people in particular that I can see myself still keeping contact with in 5 years. It has been quite alright to say the least. The people in my residence hall have been amazing. Its almost sad when you start realizing that after Friday, we will no longer be residents of Lowell M. Sowers Residence Hall (don't ask why I even noticed). No more annoying knocks on the door from people asking for something, no more noisy neighbors, no more fights (haha). I think that I have connected with some of the people here, and that is pretty cool. Not saying that this was the most spectacular year ever, but it was one hell of an academic year.

I will not miss those triflin girls that like to leave period blood trails on the bathroom floor, leave hair in the shower drains, get hair dye all over the place, leave loogies in the sink drains, and improperly wrap sanitary pads. I will not miss the fact that our room always smelled like food in the afternoon because we live right on top of a restaurant. I will not miss the random knocks at odd hours of the day. I will not miss the people who annoyed me (well at least not their annoying tendencies). I will not miss the people at the restaurant downstairs waking me up at wee hours with their boombox and reversing food trucks.

But mostly the biggest change that I will have to got through next year is my living situation. I have rented an apartment with two of my friends. So, Morgan will no longer be my roommate.

So she finally gets her shine... Morgan is one of the most eccentric people (or obsessive?) people that I have ever met in my life. There are not too many people that can share the same sense of humor that I have.  Laugh at things that aren't funny (or meant to be). Break up relationship fights with. Help out drunk neighbors and laugh when they aren't looking. She is annoying bitch, but she was an awesome annoying bitch. Life at FSU would not have been as amusing as it was with her. Next year will still be pretty amusing, but it will never emulate or surpass the merryment that I had with Morgan. So, yes, bitch, when you read this, just know...you are pretty fucking amazing. (don't get hyped.) We have like a million insiders and its really funny because in 10th grade when we had Chemistry together, we would have never figured that we would be living with each other for 9 consecutive months. She puts up with my strange (and probably annoying) tendencies. So, will all that said, we (and I) will miss that ho.

As far as my academics, I am definitely going to step up the game next semester. I can't wait to bring the grades where they need to be.

I really don't have much to say, other than the fact that I'm waiting for my dad to get here so he can come get me (and my belongings.)

of a different variety.

So I haven't written in a couple days. Not that I planned to write every day or something but I just thought that would be enough to say. 

But anyways, we have a little over two weeks left in the semester, and I am happy to say the least. I don't want to get too excited, because I still need to keep myself focused enough to close in for the year and get decent grades. I can not afford to slip. I'm trying to stay focused, but the worrysome and distracted person that I am won't allow me to. But fuck that, I will prevail. haha.

OH! and in other news, I pierced my own cartilage on Tuesday. Morgan and I did our own ears. And it did hurt. But not enough to cry. But the stupid thing I did was I put a nickel-alloy earring in it...I'm allergic to nickel... SO I don't feel too smart right now, but hopefully the force is with me and my ear doesn't react negatively to it :-/ I'm pretty sure it will because every time my skin comes in contact with a nickel,  it starts itching and I get raised bumps, and sometimes fluid comes out...gross, yes, but it's true. So I'm allergic to most belt buckles, some bra snaps, buttons, necklaces, keys, or anything that contains nickel. I need to go get a titanium earring for it. The pin that I pierced it with probably has nickel in it, too. =[

But if the force acts with me, I'll be fine like my mother tried to assure me to believe. But she told me it it starts reacting funny, I should take it out, and I could always get it done professionally on the other ear while it heals. I don't really think I regret it, I'm just kind of skeptical of the outcome. I would actually feel the safest if I used a hollow piercing needle... but anyway it's all good.

On other notes, I just came from a UPC (University Programming Council) interview. I think it went well, and hopefully I get chosen to be on the exec board next semester. 

LMAO. My statistics professor sent all his students a very amusing picture (it's amusing considering the circumstances that the world is currently under)

click here to see =]

I just could not believe the humor of that. haha

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UGH.

Currently, i'm trying to get all my assignments done and turned in on time. I won't lie, it's starting  to get to me. Sometimes i wonder how people are fucking around partying and sleeping all day and night, but still manage to get decent grades. i guess it depends on your major and how dedicated you are. I am a pretty dedicated person when it comes to my grades. I have a phobia of failing. I may not show it, but I am really terrified of failing. Not like I haven't failed things before, but it just really bothers me when my assignments aren't top notch. 

And since my major is biology, I have to do a lot more than people in some of the other programs. I am also a chemistry minor, and it annoys me that I never have a day that I don't have any homework to do. That's really not a problem. I just get tired of staying up until 4am or later studying for some big exam or writing papers or doing math homework. Its hard to do other priorities. I have to find a job or internship in case the one I applied for doesn't work out. i need to save some more money in my account also. I have to worry about a lot of crap. Scholarship applications, too.

I don't like to complain about stuff, but quite frankly, I am stressed. I'm a Pre-Med student, so my grades have to be FLAWLESS. I can't fail anything, and i can barely afford any C's. Its a lot of pressure, but i suppose in the end it will all be worth it.

I just finished some English Homework, and I am about to finish up some math homework...at 3:30 in the morning. I just can't wait until the weekend when I can catch up on sleep. But pray for me, I'll definitely need it. =]

And also, I dissected an earthworm today. It was kinda cool, I can't wait to get to the pig fetuses. =]