of a different variety.

So I haven't written in a couple days. Not that I planned to write every day or something but I just thought that would be enough to say. 

But anyways, we have a little over two weeks left in the semester, and I am happy to say the least. I don't want to get too excited, because I still need to keep myself focused enough to close in for the year and get decent grades. I can not afford to slip. I'm trying to stay focused, but the worrysome and distracted person that I am won't allow me to. But fuck that, I will prevail. haha.

OH! and in other news, I pierced my own cartilage on Tuesday. Morgan and I did our own ears. And it did hurt. But not enough to cry. But the stupid thing I did was I put a nickel-alloy earring in it...I'm allergic to nickel... SO I don't feel too smart right now, but hopefully the force is with me and my ear doesn't react negatively to it :-/ I'm pretty sure it will because every time my skin comes in contact with a nickel,  it starts itching and I get raised bumps, and sometimes fluid comes out...gross, yes, but it's true. So I'm allergic to most belt buckles, some bra snaps, buttons, necklaces, keys, or anything that contains nickel. I need to go get a titanium earring for it. The pin that I pierced it with probably has nickel in it, too. =[

But if the force acts with me, I'll be fine like my mother tried to assure me to believe. But she told me it it starts reacting funny, I should take it out, and I could always get it done professionally on the other ear while it heals. I don't really think I regret it, I'm just kind of skeptical of the outcome. I would actually feel the safest if I used a hollow piercing needle... but anyway it's all good.

On other notes, I just came from a UPC (University Programming Council) interview. I think it went well, and hopefully I get chosen to be on the exec board next semester. 

LMAO. My statistics professor sent all his students a very amusing picture (it's amusing considering the circumstances that the world is currently under)

click here to see =]

I just could not believe the humor of that. haha

well, thanks for reading. I tend to use my twitter more nowadays, so follow me on twitter:

www.twitter.com/tripscore

events and such.

I've ha a pretty interesting week. It was Earth Week, and a lot of events went on around the campus. All kinds of fundraisers and charity events were going on. Me being a Bio major, its all I've been hearing about all week.

But yesterday was Relay for Life, and most of the organizations of Frostburg State were there. Fraternities, Sororities, Sports Teams, Leadership Programs. I'm part of the Pre-Professional Medical Society, and we had to stay there for a REALLY long time. Relay for life was from 6pm to 6am this morning. I was there from like 7pm to about 5am. So I was there for a while. Pre Med Society raised the most money....

Oh, by the way, Relay for Life is a walk for cancer awareness and support. I've had a family member recently survive cancer, so the whole event was pretty cool. There was like a vigil for all the cancer survivors and those who lost their lives to cancer. I took some pictures too.

this looked really cool=]

me; sometime at 8pm

moesha and toesha.

lol

right before we left.

here's her blog by the way.

stuff.

I don't have much to say today, besides the fact that I've been pretty busy. It has been a good week though, and for that I am grateful. I have a lab practical on Friday, and I'm not sure how well I'm going to do on it, but I'm pretty confident that I will pass. Statistics is kicking my ass, but I won't surrender to it, I've come too far to stop now. Besides, I have a B.

I still have to send in my job and internship applications before I wrap up this semester. Next semester I'm going to have a plate full of events because I have signed up to do a lot. I need to be more active on campus, and get a little bit going on for me to put on my resume. Currently, I'm only involved in the Pre-Professional Medical Society. 

But anyway...

I am really looking forward to this summer, even though most of it I porbably won't be sitting around enjoying myself. I'm just excited to take a break from the full-time student thing. I'm still going to be taking classes this summer, though. One online Psych class, and possibly a Chemistry class. I still have to work and all that stuff too. But honestly, I'm more concerned about school than making money at this time. Next year, I might be a tutor for Biology 149...so there's some stipend there too.

Kicking into overdrive.

Besides school and working and camp counseling at my youngest brother's school, I will try to squeeze in time to go places and do stuff. I am going to New York at least one time this summer. Definitely will be taking the MARC train to Washington, DC as well. I'll also go party with everyone, its been a really long time.

So, I am looking forward to that. So, i'll be working extra hard until the semester is finally over..then home I come.

sdlkflkjaskl;fjwijrlkgfnelkrfnglknrlngekngklnw;gkja

so much to do, so little time.

ok.

adios.

a beautiful day.

"A morning shower is like a rebirth, reflections of the womb, crazy sentimental floating in lukewarm placental, Now I chop a burden on the sink trying not to think about what 

Lies before me but the sun just reassured me that 
Everythings gonna be allright, the last thing on my mind is tonight..." -Travis McCoy, Gym Class Heroes, A Beautiful Day

I'm feeling enlightened today. I really am. Maybe because the weather is nice, because that kind of makes me a little happy when the weather is nice. puts me in a fantastical mood. muuch better than yesterday. we have a few weeks of school left, so hopefully they'll be fun. i don't like to dwell on the fact that i'm in a shithole of a town, i'd rather just embrace positive things about it. i'm not really bent on going home, i'm not homesick, however, i do miss some things about being home. moping around about not being home is a waste of time and emotion. so i just live life one day at a time. no point in being all depressed and what have you, because in the end, it does nothing but make me look like a sap. haha.

too young to be depressed. so anyway, hopefully its fun, i want to really get out and do something for a change hopefully if i find time and audacity to do it. these days i spend less time in my room because i need a change of scenery. i did a little cleaning up today because i was sick of looking at the mess that was on my side of the room. and as far as not being in th4e room as much as i could be, i get more done elsewhere, too. i'm tired of looking at the same 8 (or so) walls in here. i even changed my sheets to green. (^_^)

so shannon and i were talking about getting out more, and she was saying that you kinda miss out on the whole college experience when you're inside doing nothing. which is true. so like we decided to go out today, even though it probably won't happen (never does)...but you never know. and even if we do get out, we probably won't find anywhere to go. but the point is, getting out and doing something other than sitting around in boredom.

i just feel enlightened. its like no holding back time. no pessimism today. maybe tomorrow when i have to do homework and shit. but not today. but i think i always feel like this on saturdays.

so in this few weeks that we have left..."i'ma do it up." lmaoo

FML.

I'm not really stressed. But I'm not really cool either. I'm just crazy irritated. I don't really know why I am so irritated. I just find it so hard to keep things together. Like, I'm usually a pretty neat and organized person. I don't know what the  fuck is going on with my life, but my living quarters are a hot ass mess. My drawers in my desk don't even close because they're full of papers and other bullshit that I need to take care of. I have a lot of work to do and it bothers me because I never get the chance to do it.  I really don't have much pending now, but there have been days where I just said, "'Fuck this." and went to sleep. Mind you, this was probably at 5:00 in the morning.

I find it very hard to be satisfied because I don't really want to call myself a perfectionist, but I just have certain tendencies that cause me to get rather irritated. Sometimes I'm very grateful for being able to supress my anger. I get very pissed off, but I just don't show it because it draws attention, and the last thing I want is unnecessary attention. i find myself stopping myself from saying or doing things quite often these days. 

OH MY FUCKING GOSH. my english teacher fucking called me today saying that there was something wrong with a transition in my essay or something so my paper failed, but she's giving me a chance to fix it. By the way, if we fail this paper, WE FAIL THE COURSE. I was rather heated, but I calmed myself, and just went to read my essay again. I am going to fix the problem, and that bitch better not fail my motherfucking paper.

I went to the lounge to call her back to reason with her. And I swear I had to call her 7 times before the damn line was clear. UGHH. I was kinda almost shaking a little bit out of anger, because I get really angry about my grades. especially if its an irrelevant subject like English. I envisioned myself throwing one of the chairs in the lounge through the wall. I think I almost did it. But you know, I quickly got over that.

I just advise people to avoid my angry persona because it's something that has gotten me in trouble many times, and its just a part of me that I would like to get rid of, but can't. But luckily, people think I'm very calm and collected and unable to get angry. It does take a lot to make me angry, but its just something that none of us want. 

I kind of envisioned myself ripping my laptop apart too. haha.

oh......shit.

lol

but i need a stress reliever. or supressant. like a drink or something. i think i'd be very enlightened. haha.

later days.

Really? Another Reconsideration.

So you know how they say the average college student changes their major at least once? Well I don't really feel the desire to change my major, I just feel like I need some serious backup plans. I don't really know why I want to go to medical school. I'm not sure if its because I think its what I really want to do, or if that is what my mother is supporting. When I told her I wanted to go into aeronautics when I was in high school, she wasn't really happy about that. I think that I still want to do science, and possibly still do something medical, but I'm just not sure if the General Practitioner thing is for me.  I  like the idea of helping people feel better, but I feel like I need to be doing something 'cooler'.

So, I'm just evaluating my options, but I think the person that I really need to talk to is my dad. My mother would not understand what I'm saying and where I'm coming from, and she would be very disappointed. But i'm not even saying that I'm completely ruling medical school out. I just need some alternative plans in case that doesn't work. But I think my dad will have a better viewpoint because he is less biased, and he also probably never intended to do what he is doing now. He is smart enough to have gone to medical school, and also enough to go be a professor. However, he has a Doctorate of Business Administration (DBA), and he was an accountant before he got more experience in managing a contracting company. So, I'll just ask for his opinion before turning to my hot tempered mother. =]

As far as people's common misconceptions about doctors and medical schools, I don't really listen to them because most of them have no idea what it takes and requires. Most people believe that doctors have no lives, hardly ever get married or date, and are in school or working forever. There are some doctors that stay on call, and work long hours. Most of them are trauma surgeons, or ER doctors, the rest of them are OB/GYNs. General Practice doctors have office hours, and usually work in clinics. Some work in hospitals. They spend the rest of their time doing what they desire.

I come from a family with several doctors in them, and all of them are happily married and had their share of love life, and clubbing days. Life is simply what you make out of it.

I feel like this is a vvery ininteresting blog because its talking about me, and I don't really like to talk about things that bother me. So this one really wasn't written to entertain anyone, it was just written out of spontaneous thought.

But I just think that it's weird how two people I know both changed their minds about being doctors, and I was even currently in the consideration of keeping or not keeping the medical school goal. One of my previous blogs actually brought up the issue. 

But if all goes well, I'll be happy, and making a plentiful, yet not ridiculous salary. I just want to be well off. I will definitely finish more than a bachelor's degree, no doubt, but I just don't know which doctorate or master's I will be completing. I'm still keeping my aeronautics interests in mind. Maybe I'll be flying planes or managing air traffic control.

MaybeI'll be a surgeon. Maybe I'll be a gynecologist. Maybe I'll be a dentist. Maybe I'll do something else. Its all a matter of fate.

April 13, 2009..nothing special

So today was actually a pretty good day, despite the fact that I hate Mondays. I got three exams back, two of which i passed...the lab practical....ehhh. I'll do better the next time. I'm going to do like a lot of extra credit for Biology so I can have a sweet grade. 

Today was a good day, I had lab today, and we dissected a crayfish and a sea star (its not really a fish, so I'm not going to call it a 'starfish'.) It was actually kind of cool, you know, despite the smell of it all. I just really find aminal anatomy interesting. I just like science and I always have, like it has always been my favorite subject. So the crayfish was a little more interesting to cut open than the starfish because there are more complex organs in them and whatnot. Edward (study buddy, lab partner, or as he says, "partner in crime") was having a little too much fun with it though. At least he cleaned my knives, probes and pins. 

Take a look.

haha. it actually looks like i'm really doing something special.

....

This summer, I'll also be teaching children Biology, thanks to my mom. =/ I'm not sure how this is going to go. My youngest brother is in 2nd grade, and they are going to a wildlife camp, and they need teachers and counselors. I just HAPPENED to be a Biology major, so my mom volunteered me.

But it should be amusing. I do like kids. So that is going to consume a week of my life.

i really can't wait until this summer, even though i have to take some General Education courses hopefully to get more credits. But i'm working constantly. I have to take classes, work, and hopefully get an internship.

But its all good...

by the way, look what I saw the other day...

LMFAO.

Medical School, Dentistry, DAT, MCAT

As many of you already know, I am a Biology Pre-Health Major, and I plan to apply to medical school at the end of my Undergraduate Career. I really want to stick with my goals, and keep my priorities in line, because it is extremely hard to get into medical school. You need at least a 3.5 cumulative GPA, and a 30- something or higher on the MCAT on average. Meaning that people with less might get in, and people with more will get in. The acceptance rates for medical schools are very,very low. Studies show that half of the people that apply to medical schools get rejected from every single one they apply to. Which is my fear. I'm actually a little frightened, because I haven't really thought of a back-up plan. If I don't do too well with that, I am going to take the DAT, and apply to a school of dentistry. If that doesn't work, I'll have to reevaluate my plan and maybe consider graduate school before applying to medical school again.

That is what I really think that I want to do, and if all of that fails, I'll turn to Piloting for a major airline, and managing air traffic control. Which is kind of not what my parents would go crazy for. But you know, I'm trying. Its really hard to get the grades that you want, because I just ahve a lot to do, andmy attention span is terrible. I get distracted so easily, and it feels like the people that don't have plans to go to medical school don't understand how hard it is, and why we work so hard. I consider myself to be very lazy compared to the way that I feel like I should be working. So from now on, I'm going to work harder than I ever have worked before, and put my schoolwork before everything else. Its all a big competition now.

I'm also going to be a political science minor, so I have to finish all the coursework for that too. But I'm just hoping and praying that things go well for me, and I actually do make it into medical school. I really just hope that everything goes well and the way I planned it. If not, dentistry school is going to be my next option. If I can't go into medicine, I want to be an orthodontist and get a DDS. Either way, the title, "Dr." will be in front of my name.

Anyone else in the same pickle?

reconsideration.contemplation.realization

Just trying to keep a level head..

However, before I go to bed.

I stop to think of the possibilities

of hypothetical discrepancies-

Like "What if?" this, and

"What if?" that.

Places I could have been,

Things I could have seen,

Moments I could have savored

Other events that I probably should have favored.

Like decisions that I must make, and

Precautions I should take

I need a back up plan...

If I can't do this, there's something I can.

I have a purpose here;

But failure is my biggest fear

I continue to worry about my fate

I want to know NOW, I don't want to wait!

As I lay here stressing,

I count my blessings,

and think thoughts that are far from depressing...

I have a plan

that I can

fulfill my dreams

though it seems 

a little far-fetched right now...

But I'm not letting anything impede my sight now.

I think of the sweet smell of that Biology sash...

"I Can See Clearly Now", like Johnny Nash [haha]

But I will prevail, my plans won't flop....

It's 3:31am, I really have to stop...

music makes me happy.

So, I got my MIDI keyboard to work on my computer with FL Studio! I am very happy to say the least. So I've just been playing around with it so hopefully in the next 2 weeks or so, I can record a track and put it up on my music page. Many people don't know that I have one, I've actually had it since April 2006. Haha. But, I will kinda try to do it this time. See, When I made the music page, I didn't have the keyboard and stuff to do, and I kind of was still learning to use different audio editing programs. Then I got the equipment in 2007, and the software that came with it didn't work =[. So I kind of held off on it for a while, until I started playing with Virtual DJ and KeyStudio recently. 

So today, I got the darn keyboard to work. I'm happy...and I will be using much more often, now that it actually works...haha. But don't get me mistaken, I won't waste time too much, I do have a lot of work to do. I had to plan next semester's classes, and I'm looking at 17 credits so far...and the limit is 17.5 credits. Most students try to take an average of 15 or less. But I have to stay on top of my studies so I can graduate on time. Biology majors rarely graduate in 4 years because of all the required coursework that they must complete to get their degree and to fulfill the school's requirements. But fuck that, I will graduate on time. Yes sirrrrr. Maybe early if I can do it. =] 

But the point is, I'm not going to let that consume my time. When I have extra time, I'll either be sleeping, on the internet, or doing this music thing.

But I'm excited.

as soon as I get myself together, I'll post the link to my myspace music page. thanksssssssss