to nobody.

Things are easier said than done

such an overused phrase...

but it's so true. i never realized how true that was

and as a result, my mind has started to travel

all my train cars have separated

taking different roots at these divergent tracks

and it's confusing because they all travel at different speeds

some don't even stop to wait

talkless of looking back...

they don't wait. they don't take the time to listen

they just zoom on past like they weren't just part of one train

this train that has been whole for ages

they just, you know, kept going,

leaving their exhaust smoke behind choking the green car

the green car is the car of reason

the middle car that kept everyone together

but soon as we reached these divergent tracks..

it's like we never existed

but things that you did before start catching up to you

like that person who was only a few minutes late for the train

and you left them anyway...so now they're stranded in a

wasteland town

or the inoperable train car you just left behind

without so much as a glance

or that illegal 'detour' you took

that now obviously leads to nowhere that we know

or the secrets kept among the train staff

"what happens here, stays here" right?

but then everything comes into fruition

and we later realize that

everything that we did...or they did

stays with you forever

no matter how much you try to forget this

integral part of life

it's okay. it's fine.

i promise.

i don't lie now

believe me, i won't...

but those things you said

bring me to different conclusions

you know...it's funny how someone's actions

impact, influence, completely alter and sometime denature your previous notions

or forced thoughts

but you can't deceive yourself forever.

if you think you can...you're a fool.

fool - foolish - foolishness can't decide

what to think

it's probably unclear what context i'm speaking in

is it third person

or first person

third omniscient?

i love playing tricks with you

you're so vulnerable my dear.

you...?

doesn't exist. just a understood word for whoever is reading this

i think i'm starting to sound like a mentally unsound person

because i'm probably not making any sense

but that's great. really it is...

please. just...

just...

understand me.